school has been great..feeling good…graduate next year…got my white zinfindale next to me….as well as my handsome man…ugh..i love this guy…gives me everything…well not everything..but enough…lmfao..
soo today’s lesson is…..drum rolls plz……..love…relationship
Its a beautiful feeling…how can u miss it…it pops out of nowhere…unbearable, unconditional like giving birth…i dont know..but i like love…and to me that is what everyone in this world wants and needs “LOVE” strong word but its only strong because us humans hate that its the strongest thing in the world that you cant control…feelings of love….how can you cast away from it??? there is no way…its a mind game!!lately i have been wasting my writing skills and have not been writing, but im back baby…im so back i even got the app on my phone baby…lmfao…
anywho……being in a relationship can be a hassle and wonderful at the same time….that being said..the hassle is the emotional wreck part (me) the “aries” cries and gets upset about every little thing to the point of not answering phone calls….i be flipping the hell out….well of course that comes to the part of having trust issue…ugh…dont u hate that…i love that im admitting to stuff…its awesome of me!!!
ok so, me having trust issues started from a bad relationship of course but, i also think it started from me having father issues…(clearing my throat) my father left my mother when she was pregnant with me, she had nobody but my grandparents…even tho this kind of situation happens all the time.. watever..i grew up with a stepfather that treated me like i am his daugther till this day… when he dont even have to…i mean to the point he got me a car, paid my college tuition, paid my apartment…like everything a real father should do for his own daughter…it made me think about how low of my father is period. i used to always wait for him for my birthdays, he’d never showed up and i regret that every bday wish was for him to come see me… i dont want to hate him…but i feel like i do, but ive heard that you have to forgive the ppl you hate in life to move on!! that i am still trying to do…..i dont know how easy it would be…we will c…cuz i got a hell of a attitude and i feel like i should give it to him before i can forgive him…let alone he does have like 10 kids total and i am the oldest…and i am only 23 years old..the youngest is 1yrs…smfh…HE IS A LOSER!!
SOONER OR LATER I WILL FORGIVE HIM…BUT I KNOW DAMN WELL WHO IS REALLY WALKING ME DOWN THE AISLE ON MY WEDDING DAY..AND IT DAMN SURE AINT HIM…
LOVE IS A BEAUTIFUL EXPRESSION…TTL!!!